Three friends are coming round for dinner this evening. I've trimmed the plasters back, washed my hair for the first time since surgery and put on some make-up. Apart from the plasters, I haven't scrubbed up too badly. Well, we'll see what the girls say. Two of the girls know about the surgery, but one doesn't. Surprise!
I made the decision to have surgery entirely by myself. I never talked about how I felt about my nose before; it seemed like a really big deal. I told one friend a month before surgery and she was surprised, then listed a few surgeries she would like to have herself. Another friend was the same. She told me that I didn't need it and then said "take me with you!".
That has been a common reaction. I think most people have body hang ups and it's such a pity. I like the little features that make people different. To be honest, my nose was quite strong and 'Roman' looking before hand. I didn't mind that. The problem was that it was just too big for my face. I don't have a big family either, where we all have the same shape of nose and can wear it as a badge of honour. It was just me dealing with that monster on my own.
Rhinoplasty isn't going to make me a perfect by any means - far from it - and there are a few features which I'm not overly keen on, but the nose is the only thing that I'm going to change.
My friend was very supportive. Telling the first person was the hardest. I felt so silly saying it, but when I did, it cemented it. I was going to get Rhinoplasty. Telling my mum was hard - I thought she'd be angry, but she was completely fine about it.
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